ill.

28Jun08

Hati ini mahu
dipungut tidak sudi
diherdik tidak lali
bagaimana alam ini fana
begitulah hati ini

sakit….!
Tuhan saja yang tahu
kerana Tuhan saja yang dengar rintihan
yang tidak terungkap
sekadar termenung pada awan yang kian mendung
dan terpaku melihat dunia ini berputar
pada akal yang sudah tidak mampu mencapai
hati ini yang makin berisi
makin sepi

bengkak… terus membengkak
mahukan dunia
dada hilang ruang menaung

hati ini sekadar mahu, dan mahu [...]

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If equal affection cannot be

21Jun08

It’s past midnight, and too close to my final paper for comfort. A little rant – hopefully one less hyper and cringeworthy than the previous one – is only due.
I left Malaysia thinking nothing much would change. I started uni this semester thinking that my life would fall into routine – that it would be [...]

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Whinge whinge whine boo.

10Jun08

Exams.
Time flies.
Like mottled moth wings,
Exams stink.
But that’s not the point. With all the calamity back home home from the rise in oil prices (‘We’re going to WALK,’ said Papa) and the many, many, many Earth-forsaken political whinings from within and without the government, I finally gave up and read that ultimate bias in media, CNN.com.
And [...]

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I could quote your many wounds of battle.

07Jun08

I am more emotionally vulnerable today than I have been in months.
I had promised you, my reader, new or loyal or visiting, in so much as broken thoughts, a different take on things: stronger, mature, calm. But today the sky is grey and the wind is cold, and the Cavatina is re-establishing the fact that [...]

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